Gispel of Mary

Freedom is not achieved by turning our backs upon the heritage of the land, nor is it won by force of arms. The restricting vessels of a true tradition are the way to freedom, but only if they are correctly understood and utilized. If this operation is successful, the restricting power itself is not only transcend, but transformed.

–The UnderWorld Initiation

Re-reading the underworld initiation. Just finished the hidden adept which was a fun book. Debating whether to read some Gersholm Sholem, Ibn Arabi and/or fiction about cats…..

The liberation mentioned above is a spiritual union if all opposites and transcended. The UnderWorld tradition is a universal one found world wide. The Orphic mysteries, sleeping beauty, the Cult of Venus and the Goddess in her tomb. Transformation within the very depths of the earth, within and without…

As we know in Hermeticism, “As above so below” The macro and microcosm. Transformation in the depths of the earth then is seen on a stellar, solar, lunar scale.. within this lunar scale is ourselves.  Visita Interiora Terrae Rectificando Invenies Occultum lapidem. Visit the interior of the Earth through purification you will find the hidden stone.

I realised, it is this aspect that I must initially explore in the home I live in. Misplaced from England and New york city, now in this spiritually, botanically unfamiliar land. To truly work here, I must work here. Therefore I must pass through the inverted tree, downwards into wonderland… to the realms below.

They summoned Eurydice and gave her to him, but upon one condition: that he would not look back at her as she followed him, until they had reached the upper world. So the two passed through the great doors of Hades to the path which would take them out of the darkness, climbing up and up. He knew that she must be just behind him, but he longed unutterably to give one glance to make sure. But now they were almost there, the blackness was turning gray; now he had stepped out joyfully into the daylight. Then he turned to her. It was too soon; she was still in the cavern. He saw her in the dim light, and he held out his arms to clasp her; but on the instant she was gone. She had slipped back into the darkness. All he heard was one faint word, “Farewell.”

I must embrace the Rose, meet the natives of the land….


From this it is plain that the Earth is like the bass above which the rest of the harmony of the universe progresses. If it were removed, the other voices would remain in an unpleasant and imperfect harmony of many dissonances. Believing sufficient to have been said on the universal symphony of the planets, we will now turn to the particulars of their symphony.

Athanasius Kircher

The Grail: a brief introduction.

What is the Grail?
How long is a piece of string?

Well due to Dan Brown, many may think the Grail is one of three things…
the cup from the last supper
the Magdalena
the bloodline

what is the Grail? All of the above and far more. What we find with the Grail is a unifying theme.
The Grail is generally feminine
The Grail is a sacred vessel; a container
the Grail is a thing of transformation

the Grail is feminine, well yes. The vagina/womb is feminine…the Magdalena/bloodline. So the alchemical symbol of the downward pointed triangle, which means water, is feminine and found in the star of David
we can see this in tarot, epitomized by the Moon card, and the suit of cups…In Celtic times, sacred springs, such as Chalice Well in Glastonbury (England), were guarded by maidens, there is at least one story of this I have read…

The vessel or container…well a cup is a vessel or container. So again are a womb and a vagina. Of course if we look at Paganism, we find another expression of the vessel, the cauldron. To the ancient Britons the Cauldron of the Goddess was 3 fold…one gave wisdom, initiation, see the story of Taliesin. The cauldron of plenty that fed many and was never empty.  And the last most sinister, was the cauldron of the dead…that brought back the dead, however those brought back were generally not fully alive and traumatized from being in the land of the dead. These three cauldrons are of course found all over European folk stories.

The Grail is a vessel of transformation. Well Arthur’s knights sought to find the Grail, to transform the wasteland…The cauldrons also show us how he Grail is a vessel of transformation. We can also look to Islam, who had their Grail churches…once upon a time. The familiar story of Aladdin is the story of the Grail. Aladdin’s lamp, thus becomes the Grail…and a vessel of transformation

So what is the Grail? A feminine sacred vessel of transformation.
If we look to Kabbalah, we see Kingdom or Malkut is also referred to as the fallen Shekinah (Sophia Ecamoth, Gnosticism). The Shekinah is the “presence” of God, the divine feminine. Sometimes referred to as God’s consort and God’s mother. Malkut represents everything physical, everything manifest…the entire physical universe. So what are we saying? Yes…the Grail is the entire universe….a grain of sand, a tree, a mountain, is all the Grail. For are not things contained within a transforming feminine manifest universe?

But what else? The temple of Solomon in Judaism is seen as something sacred, a place to be built and to be copied. For the spiritual seeker the holiness of a spiritual temple or place of worship cannot be downplayed.

Of course what is a temple?..a container of the divine, a place of transformation. So what is the temple? You are the temple; you are the “temple not built with hands.” This is one reason the Torah states only God can rebuild the temple, any built by man will be destroyed. The temple not built with hands, you are the temple, the holy house of transformation, that, if you are willing, will contain the divine, contain the PRESENCE.

So we see, the Grail is unification of the mundane and the divine, in order to be the temple we must unite with the divine. Lover and loved must become one, as the Sufi tell us…a thousand times.

To conclude, the Grail is not something you obtain, find, learn the location with a map

The Grail is who you are, and who you become…

here endeth a brief introduction.

Hail Sophia, Lady of Light,
Mystical Lover of my spirit.
Blessed are you, Woman of Wisdom,
and blessed are the gifts you bestow on us your children.

Holy Sophia, goddess who leads to the One God,
fill me with your emptiness,
and darken my spirit with your light,


It is I who am you: and it is you who are me,
And wherever you are,
I am there. And I am sown in all;
and you collect me from wherever you wish.
And when you collect me, it is your own self that you collect

–Gospel of eve


the mabinogion

The Gnostic Hymn of the Pearl

The Gospel of Philip

The Gospel of Mary

Grimm fairy tales

The Chemical wedding of Christian Rosenkreutz

etc etc etc etc

God is ineffable

as soon as you say what God is…
You have not said what God is.

The more you speak, the less you say.



“When an individual goes through a traumatic experience and reacts as if nothing has occurred, then the experience has most likely not yet sunk in. The data is in the intermediate period between the gathering of the information and the time when it becomes fully processed and absorbed. The information is still lingering on in the passageway and has not yet trickled down into the heart. This occurs with all types of information. There is always a lapse between receiving information and the emotional absorption of that information. The only variable is how long this takes. Some information is processed immediately, while other data takes more time to absorb and to be registered emotionally. At times we smile walking down the street because of something we heard hours earlier, and it is only then that we feel its impact.


There are times when this connection is impaired, or severed, so that one’s ability to feel what one thinks is all but absent. This occurs when the passageway is cluttered, and it is a no go between the mind and heart. On a physical level, within the neck of a human being there exists two passages, the esophagus, which is the food pipe, and the trachea, which is the windpipe. In the spiritual domain as well, these two passages can be stuffed and cluttered. Spiritual blockage of the food pipe occurs when one is filled to excess with physical nourishment, when one is so overly engrossed in consuming and absorbing physical pleasures that one neglects the spiritual. The windpipe, on the other hand, represents air and ambiance. When this pipe is clogged, it means that one is not in an appropriate environment conducive to the arousal of noble emotions. When these connecting pipes are congested, the intellect has no avenue to penetrate the heart. The thoughts cannot evolve into emotions, and so they remain in the mind.


In Kabbalistic terminology this phenomenon is called Timturn halev, dullness of the heart. This is when one suffers from the inability to be responsive and to feel emotions. One may perceive with one’s intellect how one should love, yet one’s emotions remain silent. One is incapable of feeling or being spiritual moved. This spiritual numbness arises from and is a manifestation of one’s ego, where all that one feels is one’s own existence and need for survival. The preoccupation with coarse bodily experiences does not allow for genuine sensitivity to spirituality. In this state of spiritual numbness the ego does not allow the light of comprehension to illuminate the emotions.”

– DovBer Pinson (Meditation and Judaism)


Children, you belong to God, and you have defeated these enemies. God’s Spirit is in you and is more powerful than the one that is in the world. These enemies belong to this world, and the world listens to them, because they speak its language. We belong to God, and everyone who knows God will listen to us. But the people who don’t know God won’t listen to us. That is how we can tell the Spirit that speaks the truth from the one that tells lies. My dear friends, we must love each other. Love comes from God, and when we love each other, it shows that we have been given new life. We are now God’s children, and we know him. God is love, and anyone who doesn’t love others has never known him. God showed his love for us when he sent his only Son into the world to give us life. Real love isn’t our love for God, but his love for us. God sent his Son to be the sacrifice by which our sins are forgiven. Dear friends, since God loved us this much, we must love each other.

–1 John 4-10



the words flow, decisions made
idea’s mine, but the inspiration not
dreams of hangers on, dreams of getting well
spells of ezmerelda, emeralds foretold
splinters in the eye sentiments remain
bones that never rest where we going to
it was never up to me and yet i pushed until it broke

I love the open road and all that it suggests
wheel wagon dust weeds and infidelities and
always for a love never question why
in a wooden house immoveable and silent and
drinking strawberry wine forever lost in town
and thru the sleeping streets night bound and heavy
wheels in the spoke still spoken for himself

now my gates are high, my friends even higher
forgotten in my mind, yet the sky still linger and
cloud the blue skies, i’m jealous of you birds
was the only truth in a world full of words?
hear the prairie sound in a friend called near
the heart is pointed down but my spirit pointed up
his voice for siren of greek mythology

i pause with my pen i begin to defend
every action taken, every moment sealed
when i was quick it coursed through open veins
the will to live the urgency to move
behind a panel door sealing cherry stain
i play my guitar and live those lonesome notes

like a dog that’s down
in a corner just a sigh
waiting to be called
waiting to be yours
ghosts of all my shame
without purpose or will

i often speak of you but the you is always me
cause when i speak of me it’s me i ask of you
so let there be no truth just trickery in rhymes
time the only thing waiting still as death

i hope for resolution pray one defining moment
pause without restrain barren without child
a child is who i was a child is who I’ll die
soot in my hair
and stars in my hands
soot in my hair
and stars in my hands
soot in my hair
and stars in my hands

–soot and stars (smashing pumpkins)


“‘I am the way, and the truth, and the life’, said Jesus. In order to interpret his idea correctly, we must assimilate these three words and re-form them into a unity. And how can we do that? With the help of the image of a river. At the source of a river there is a spring: that is truth. From the spring flows water, which is life. And gradually over time, water erodes a path, which is the way. Do you know why I based my philosophy on the three words love, wisdom and truth? It is because they are linked to Jesus’ words, ‘I am the way, and the truth, and the life.’

To begin with, then, there is the source (truth); from this source flows life (love), and the riverbed, or the path this water takes for its descent, is wisdom. Water comes from above, and it descends to bring us life. But to drink it in all its purity, we must go to seek it at the source. Water descends, but we will only receive all its blessings if, through prayer and meditation, we rise to the divine Source.”

The Exorcism of Mariamne’s Demons
Tom Saunders

The Bible in Mark, and Luke describe Mary Magdalene having demons exercised from her. ‘Luke’ is particularly aimed at disclosing the incident….

Luke 8: 2-3. “And certain women, which had been healed of evil spirits and infirmities, Mary called Magdalene, out of whom went seven devils…And Joanna the wife of Chuza Herod’s steward, and Susanna, and many others, which ministered unto him of their substance.”

The “Gospel of Mary” not only reflects Luke’s description but clarifies for the Gnostic how to deal with the seven devils, known as The Seven Forms of Wrath. In the Mary Gospel a Monadic set is disclosed in the text (Chapter eight) that ancient Gnostics would recognize immediately. The study of the Monad is essential to Gnostic transcendence. For the Sethian Gnostic, the Monad is an energy that permeates everything like the force of ‘Chi’ in the study of Chinese philosophy.

The system of the Monad used by the Sethian Christians and Pythagoreans before them, is used as a tool of meditation and contemplation. It is a method to examine how an action whether physical or mental can be measured or attributed to a cause and effect using the paradigm. It is virtually a study of the ‘Spirit’ and how it flows.

The system of study starts with understanding the function of the ‘void’ or empty space, used in contemplation. In a Sethian Monadology, anything that enters that empty space is connected to the Monad, i.e. Jesus. This is expressed in Gnostic Scripture, as ”Jesus is Silence.” (“A Valentinian Exposition”)

Sets form from the Monad, or One, and expand to the dyad, triad, tetrad etc. An energy generated from the Monad runs through the set like a form of current. This holds true for any size of sets. The sets have innate characteristics like electric elements in a parallel electric circuit. They have opposites like good and evil which are also constants in the makeup of Monadic sets. It is easy to see this energy in simple dualities going from pole to pole, and this is what denotes ‘balance’ between poles like positive and negative. If a set is a ‘positive,’ it has a negative opposite, and probably ‘like units.’

As sets get larger they get more complex as to how the polarity works within the set. At the level of the pentad (5), Sets are used like a circle to show how the units are interacting within the ‘magic’ circle, which the units form. Everything within this space can be measured (seen) through the process of identifying the particular type of a unit in a set, and how it interacts with other members of the set. Units of a set can act as an entire unit, independently, or as subsets.

This is a description of the Seven Forms of Wrath, from the “Gospel of Mary.”

”The first form is darkness, the second desire, the third ignorance, the fourth is the excitement of death, the fifth is the kingdom of the flesh, the sixth is the foolish wisdom of flesh, the seventh is the wrathful wisdom. These are the seven powers of wrath.” (Chapter 8, “Gospel of Mary”)

It is probably not an accident that some of the units like ‘excitement of death’ seem vague in what they might entail. Excitement of Death holds the ‘Tetrad’ position in the set, so probably, it has broad or multiple meanings including fear, panic, perhaps murder and bloodlust.

Sethians held that flesh or the body was matter. The Kingdom of the Flesh is probably a way to paraphrase the kenoma. (being imperfect trapped in matter) This is to say that the Kingdom of the Flesh is flawed from the Pleroma. Foolish Wisdom of the Flesh probably includes sexual matters, and other behaviors, some that might be abusive. Dark Side monadic sets, connote the extreme of pure evil.

All Sethian Monadic sets start with ‘Word,’ meaning ‘Jesus Wisdom,’ (Holy Spirit) and end with Knowledge, Wisdom, Gnosis, or an equivalent term that denotes ‘Gnostic’ knowledge. The lower sets from Tetrad on up, simply are not as useful as an “Ogdoad.” It is at this level that things become clear as to cause and effect, and things inside the ‘circle’ can be manipulated. This is what the Chinese learned about applying the Tai Chi, and Sethians learned about the Monad.

The first unit (The Monad) in a Monadic set is the Root, and works to create a unifying form of energy circulating into the set, something like ‘Chi,’ Jesus Wisdom. The last unit is the Gender unit, and this has the effect of a switch like in a parallel electric circuit to reverse the positive to negative, offense to defense, yin to yang, and ‘Bada,’ to ‘Bing.’ This means for the Gnostic, if Word, (Jesus) as always the Monad, he does no evil, even if using evil units.

Wrath, Darkness, Desire, Ignorance, Excitement of ‘Death,’ (Evil) Kingdom of the Flesh, Foolish Wisdom of the Flesh, and Wrathful Wisdom, are anti-Word. To fully contemplate the power and evil intent to the full extent may make this set if applied like a weapon, the deadliest kind of mental living hell. These units are the evil opposites of what Jesus would apply to both healing and wisdom.

The mechanics of how the Evil Ogdoad, or Eight Forms of Wrath works, is exactly like the karate fighter uses the tool of an Octagon, to be able to describe and manipulate physical and mental behavior of an opponent. In order to use the formula in the Seven(8) Forms of Wrath, the method must become reality to the Gnostic, and both the ‘light’ and ‘dark,’ become one and the same. Like the Karate Fighter, the Gnostic practices a deadly art but this is in order to lesson the necessity of having to use it.

The Karate Fighter who uses the Tai Chi has eight genus moves to describe, and catalogue the exact moves in a fight. These genus units are punching, kicking, grabbing, joint locks, throwing, choking/squeezing, groundwork, and counters. Each unit or genus represents thousands of techniques which can be used/seen interchangeably with every other genus. This is of course according to the law of physics, the Paradigm is always used with rational perimeters.

Any fight can be analyzed, and cataloged as to which genus move is visualized in sequences, inside the Octagon. Good fighters counter moves and matches last a long time. The Chinese have been using the Tai Chi model for this use for centuries. It enables anyone who knows the system to come to the same conclusions about what transpired in the Octagon.

The Gnostic must manipulate the ‘Forms’ like the karate fighter manipulates his. This means learning how to use these units in ways which would be considered extremely evil. Wrath is only one of the deadly sins, found in various lists which were kept by early Christians. This means that Lust, Fear, Glutney, Hate, and a host of other ‘Demons,’ are in the mix; they are in essence the ‘Dark Side.’

The positive or Holy opposite of the Seven Forms of Wrath, would look something like this…

Word, light, satiation, practical knowledge, un-excitement of death, Holy Kingdom of the Flesh, rational wisdom of the Flesh, and Wisdom, i.e., Gnosis.

This set being applied is how Mary was healed, because it is only this knowledge which can counter the cause and effects of the evil hebdoad. The Seven Forms of Wrath, and all the other possible evil ‘Dark Side’ emotions, can use this healing model of the Ogdoad of Wrath. The formula for the ‘Forms of Wrath,’ show how to ‘form’ the positive or Holy opposite for any of the Dark Side ‘Forms.’ For a healing to work, the type of ‘Form’ must be determined. Then the ‘particular trouble’ must be put into the ‘Ogdoad’ and contemplated upon. Just switch ‘Wrath’ with say ‘Hate,’ and you form another demon.

There is only one valid source of Jesus Wisdom to apply to what becomes the ‘Word,’ in the Monadic set. This is the ”Gospel of Thomas.” It is through the study of the Sethian texts, the Thomas Gospel, and the Gnostic Gospels, that the Word becomes clear.

Darkness refers to lack of knowledge in regard to knowing that Wisdom is in fact the Holy Sprit, or Word. Knowing this changes the way you perceive the Holy Spirit. Otherwise you act out with Ignorance as to the true nature of the Word, and you face the ‘excitments’ of Death. The Gnostic student must learn how these manipulations work, separately, and in units.

Because man is matter, evil acts take place largely because of matter. Without the flesh the evil Dark Side of pain, both physical and mental because of ‘Flesh,’ can be avoided. That is, provided you understand that what must change these evil Forms, is the Soul. The Soul, is Form (Word), Perception, Consciousness, Action (Spirit), and Knowledge. It is with this tool that the Gnostic learns to advance his skills inside the ‘forms’ of the Monad. This applies to the self, family, community, city, state, country, world, universe, and Pleroma.

The “Gospel of Thomas” saying 26, offers this Wisdom about healing…26. Jesus said, “You see the sliver in your friend’s eye, but you don’t see the timber in your own eye. When you take the timber out of your own eye, then you will see well enough to remove the sliver from your friend’s eye.”.

Jesus is the Monad, Amen.


Monad: From the Greek word, meaning “one”, “single” or “unique.” It has ample
descriptions according to different contexts: According to Pythagoras it was the
first thing in existence. ”The Valentinian Exposition” declares Jesus the
‘Monad.’ (See Sethian Monadology.) mo·nad; (mnd) n. 1. Philosophy; An
indivisible, impenetrable unit of substance viewed as the basic constituent
element of physical reality in the metaphysics of Leibnitz. 2. Biology; A
single-celled microorganism, especially a flagellate protozoan of the genus
”Monas.” 3. Chemistry ; An atom or a radical with valence 1. (Online
Webster’s Dic. See also; Wikipedia.) The Monadic sequence to the Triad is
expressed is by the ”Oracles of Zoroaster,” which illuminates the
25. The Monad first existed, and the Paternal Monad still subsists.
26. When the Monad is extended, the Dyad is generated.
27. And beside Him is seated the Dyad which glitters with intellectual sections,
to govern all things and to order everything not ordered.
28. The Mind of the Father said that all things should be cut into Three, whose
Will assented, and immediately all things were so divided.
29. The Mind of the Eternal Father said into Three, governing all things by
30. The Father mingled every Spirit from this Triad.
31. All things are supplied from the bosom of this Triad.
32. All things are governed and subsist in this Triad
33. For thou must know that all things bow before the Three Supernals.
34. From thence floweth forth the Form of the Triad, being preexistent; not the
first Essence, but that whereby all things are measured.
35. And there appeared in it Virtue and Wisdom, and multiscient Truth.
36. For in each World shineth the Triad, over which the Monad ruleth.”
The “Three Supernals” is perhaps a reference to the Kabbalah, but probably
refers to the state of Tripartite.